|the shoe is on the other foot|
matt is working late tonight. he made an appearance for a shovel-into-gullet dinner and kisses for madeline before he disappeared into the dark night.
i put madeline to bed myself tonight, which is a rare occurrence. when i kissed her goodnight, she asked for "da-da" and looked all around. i told her that he loved her and he would see her tomorrow. the shoe is on the other foot.
before matt left us, he said, "now you know how i feel, all those saturdays and weeknights." i suppose i do; it is lonely without a partner.
normally, i rely on matt a great deal. in preparation for boards, i study at the library on saturdays from 10am-5pm. and i meet my study group one weeknight each week, after work. on the other nights, i have been working much harder to get home by 6pm; i am proud of that. matt has been holding us together with little complaint. he is amazing with madeline, and she adores him. adores him. in return, i promised them my sundays -to cook, and clean, and shop, and pay attention to them. and i promised them i would pass my boards. balance.
but we have a new problem on our hands... matt is worried about the economy, and his company laid off right before the holidays. there's no sense of security that it won't happen again. and soon. so his team is working hard on a demo tonight, hoping to secure a contract, and their jobs -for at least a few more months.
he's been working late a lot, recently. i've been leaving work earlier to pick up from daycare. right now, it's a 1 hour and 10 minute commute. (fortunately, work is very flexible this month.) i love the extra time i get with madeline. the more time i spend with her, the more she consumes me....
i am thankful that we had a happy holiday season instead of spending it job-hunting in a lousy market. i hope that things turn around soon, for everybody's sakes. adult worries suck. and there are lots of people worse off than us. at least if matt loses his job, and can't find a new one (i know, worst case scenario), we have the hope that in another 18 months, i will be able to get a real job (at last!) and cover our bills.
clearly, i am not optimistic about the economy. it is broken on such a fundamental level. but we'll be ok. (assuming i get a job, right?)
madeline's latest things:
-eating her feet
-playing "boo" around the corner
-understanding being scolded, and getting weepy over it
-soup ("zoop")
-dragging all her toys around in her musical wagon
-chocolate cookies after dinner, every night
-kissing her dora-baby-doll
she's the greatest kid ever. i know lots of people have said that about their kids, but they were all wrong. madeline is the greatest.
i put madeline to bed myself tonight, which is a rare occurrence. when i kissed her goodnight, she asked for "da-da" and looked all around. i told her that he loved her and he would see her tomorrow. the shoe is on the other foot.
before matt left us, he said, "now you know how i feel, all those saturdays and weeknights." i suppose i do; it is lonely without a partner.
normally, i rely on matt a great deal. in preparation for boards, i study at the library on saturdays from 10am-5pm. and i meet my study group one weeknight each week, after work. on the other nights, i have been working much harder to get home by 6pm; i am proud of that. matt has been holding us together with little complaint. he is amazing with madeline, and she adores him. adores him. in return, i promised them my sundays -to cook, and clean, and shop, and pay attention to them. and i promised them i would pass my boards. balance.
but we have a new problem on our hands... matt is worried about the economy, and his company laid off right before the holidays. there's no sense of security that it won't happen again. and soon. so his team is working hard on a demo tonight, hoping to secure a contract, and their jobs -for at least a few more months.
he's been working late a lot, recently. i've been leaving work earlier to pick up from daycare. right now, it's a 1 hour and 10 minute commute. (fortunately, work is very flexible this month.) i love the extra time i get with madeline. the more time i spend with her, the more she consumes me....
i am thankful that we had a happy holiday season instead of spending it job-hunting in a lousy market. i hope that things turn around soon, for everybody's sakes. adult worries suck. and there are lots of people worse off than us. at least if matt loses his job, and can't find a new one (i know, worst case scenario), we have the hope that in another 18 months, i will be able to get a real job (at last!) and cover our bills.
clearly, i am not optimistic about the economy. it is broken on such a fundamental level. but we'll be ok. (assuming i get a job, right?)
madeline's latest things:
-eating her feet
-playing "boo" around the corner
-understanding being scolded, and getting weepy over it
-soup ("zoop")
-dragging all her toys around in her musical wagon
-chocolate cookies after dinner, every night
-kissing her dora-baby-doll
she's the greatest kid ever. i know lots of people have said that about their kids, but they were all wrong. madeline is the greatest.
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