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work: i am officially a regular resident again. it is great. the new chief is energetic and he will be outstanding. i think this switch is as good for the program as it is for me!

home: when i get annoyed at home, it is consistently about one thing: cleanliness. i am not a clean freak by any means. in fact, i am very lazy and prefer not to clean. knowing that i grew up in a completely sterile environment, you would be surprised at how much uncleanliness i can tolerate. but even i have limits. i hate crumbs; crumbs bring ants. i hate sticky floors -they are just GROSS. so, i bug matt to help me keep the place clean, but he is a man. he is genetically predisposed to not be clean. so i get annoyed, and then he gets annoyed that i am annoyed, and then we're both annoyed -and it's over something as stupid as sticky floors. so, i think that we need to talk about having someone help keep the house clean. (i know, i know... it sounds insane.) and i keep trying to justify it in my head. but what it comes down to is that i cannot do everything. and i am OK with that.

love: i love them. they are everything. i don't know why he loves me. i am just that lucky. friends are few but true.

baby: she is the best baby in the whole world. i know i'm her mom and all, but, really, she is the beset baby in the whole world. she has a really surprising sense of humor. she is starting to test some limits, and she is definitely developing her own ideas about things. she's just starting to develop tiny hissy fits about things, but she is easily distractable. she gives me kisses! things she loves: baby doll, her bag of balls, the can of tunafish(!), giving cats treats, milk, toy cell phone, putting on shoes, balloons, getting the mail out of the mailbox, naps.

things to work on: i need to lose about 10 pounds. since i stopped pumping, the weight has been creeping up. have a more positive attitude. study for the boards. pay attention to matt, more. be kinder.