|center of my universe|

she is starting to show emotions. happiness. sadness.



when i put her down for a nap, she knows what i am doing. she looks at me with big eyes... no, mommy! no! don't go... i want to stay with you. let's play!



she turns her head to watch me as i leave the room, and she cries. not the same infant crying as before... but a sad crying. it breaks my heart. but i know she is tired, and she falls asleep within minutes.



matt thinks i should wait to hear from the second fellowship, even if it means losing out on both. the second fellowship won't be ready to make a decision until the end of january.