|milk|

well, it is 1pm and i have already pumped 3 times since i got to work.  i have one more to go at 3pm, and then maybe one at 6pm.  and maybe one after she goes to bed.  gah!  i'm not a big fan of pumping.  how is anyone supposed to get anything done?!

 

the things that keep me going are knowing that madeline needs to eat (and this is the best food, ever!), and seeing how much i can pump out.  it's almost like a little competition with myself.  it's weird, i know.  but i get a little high when i pump more than i expected.  i loaded a bunch of pictures online so i can look at them while pumping.  it seems to help with the milk letting down.  now, it would be really, really weird if i had a competition with lefty vs. righty.  but i'm not *that* weird.  honest.

 

i miss her lots, but i know she's safe at home with daddy.  it will be good for him to start to learn all her cues and cries.  it's such a great time to be with her.