|i love the baby|

6:00pm:  feed baby.  bathe baby.  dress baby.  dry baby's hair.  (she loves the warm air from the hair dryer, and the soothing lull.)  baby sleeps.

 

6:45pm:  check on tomorrow's bottles.  crash in bed.

 

9:00pm:  get up.  rummage for food.  sleep-pump on one side. 

 

9:30pm:  feed baby on other side.  baby sleeps.  finish pumping.  pack tomorrow's bags.

 

10:00pm:  crash in bed again.  sleep fitfully.  wake every 2 hours to listen if baby is asleep.

 

4:00am:  get up to feed baby.  baby sleeps.

 

4:30am:  look at baby.  hold baby.  can't seem to put baby down...  just want to sit here with her forever.... 

 

4:45am:  tear myself away.  go back to bed.  "i love the baby," i whisper to matt.  he hugs me.  "i love you too," i add.

 

5:15am:  get up.  pump both sides.  wash pump parts.  shower.  off to work.