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i can't help but worry that i am always doing something wrong.

i spend all day reading about "methods" of caring for a baby. there's babywise, attachment parenting, the baby whisperer... and now, i'm just confused and think that everything i'm doing is going to send our child to therapy by age 5.

i can't help but think there must be a "right way" of doing things and i just have to find it. i know i'm wrong, though. what i really need to do is chill out, enjoy what time we have together, and stop stressing about it.

she cries a lot, and i feel helpless. i wish she could tell me what she wanted. i want her to be happy. so far, the boob seems to be happiest place on earth for her.

i bought a bunch more stuff online today. breastfeeding accessories and such... the prices at http://www.breastpumpsdirect.com/ are pretty good -mostly better than what i saw at target and amazon.

she's getting up soon. next week we're going to start bottles.